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SO. I've been meaning to write a big explanation on why I've been gone for like a month and since I can't remember my tumblr welp. Back in I think late January, I went into a realllly deep depression. I felt lonely, people I wanted to talk to clearly didn't want to talk to me, and my mom didn't make me feel good. Eventually, I decided I had enough and attempted suicide. I don't want to go too much into detail about that, but let's just say people were right when they call me 'hard-headed' haha.

Afterwards, I stayed at the hospital for about a week or so and just had my head examined and stitched up. I went through some memory loss due to the trauma just of the past months, but that was just temporary and I got a lot of my memory back a few days after. I got to go home and they thought it would be better for me to not live with my mom for a while, in case it brought back anything, so I stayed at my friend Kev's house where I mostly lived with his mom until he came back for a while from Nebraska haha. (I feel sorry for Sid who has to takes notes for him all the time) I had lots of fun staying and eating all his mom's cooking nomnom. Kev even decided to watch the whole first series of Inazuma Eleven with me and ahhh it was so great to watch Inazuma again and to try and get Kev to know all the characters. (He just called everyone Endou _ (with their number) all except Fubuki who he...knew LOL) I came back home after another week and just decided to not talk to my mom for a bit, even though she's the one who drives me to the hospital for some check ups still fff.

Kev still visited me, and before he told me it was better if I stayed offline for a bit. Which, I totally understood since tumblr and skype just brought back some bad memories. Not even three hours in on my offline break, I wanted to talk to people again cries. He let me use Line on my laptop to talk to some friends on there which was mostly just Jiisan and Rob but ahh <3 They're my closest friends so I was fine with that. I gave him access to my skype and some other sites and let him delete anyone on my friendslist or whatever that he felt like could hurt me. I don't really care haha. I started focusing more about my school friends and hey even got a crush on one of them. But yea, crushes never work out for me. Still, I got closer with them and felt better about going to school instead of crying and stressing. I still stress but I haven't cried in a while. WELL, except when I remember that Kev plans on going to study aboard and I won't see him for a while. We have the same timezone but eventually we won't and it'll be so different to talk to him and ughh ;__; I do tear up whenever I remember.

Now that I'm back, I get to talk to Mari and Chen again! Mostly Mari LOL. But ahh I'm so happy. OH AND I FORGOT TO MENTION but Charli sent me her package and ahhh it's just so amazing. She sent all these kitkats and a rice cracker AND DADADAAAAAAA A REI CHARM. I just love it <3. CEPT HE KILLED MY SHINJI KEYCHAIN but I found his body it's all good. And recently, I've been really into pokemon, and with my chimchar, I got a Virizion plush! It's so cute! ahhh I want the whole Sacred Sword set but my wallet is starting to run dry ;v;. So for now, time to rough it up. (stares at pkmncollectors in tears)

I guess that's all for now. I need to update some Utaite Talk since ahhh Sakatan and Honeyworks and just everyone. IS. AMAZING.

- Jenn/Neko

回り込み解除

Ahh mou. Jenn, you had one heck of a day. At least you're able to move on, she isn't your problem anymore. And everyone is really happy for you. I had lots of fun when Otto came over! Btw, never play scrabble with us we don't know what we'e doing. Afterwards we watched some romantic comedy on like abcfamily or whatever. I didn't pay attention because I was flipping out that my tumblr squish wanted to get to know me better ahhh. So happy about that!! I hope I can get the butterflies out of me and try to talk to him ahh he seems so nice.

Speaking of he, I haven't talked to Kevin at all today. All he did was texted me 'good luck' which I was happy to know he got the feeling I wasn't in the mood to webcam today, I feel a bit guilty. Everything she said and did, was all a lie and it made me mad. I don't want Kev to see that side of me about her so I guess it's best for us both to not deal with an angry Jenn. Otto calmed me down with pics from our lake trip of 2012! We couldn't go last year, because of Kev's internship in Nebraska and me staying in Washington to see my family. At least I'm happy they didn't go without us, made me feel less left out. Hopefully this year we can go! I can maybe actually get a real bathing suit. Not swim, but at least not wear a jacket in like 90+ weather. I would love to see Joanna in a bikini though again ahhhh yeeeee. send me pics of her instead of my boi, I would've calmed down faster! (www)

I'm like Charli in that way where I still like looking at girls but have a boy LOL, but he's not really my boyfriend. Even though I'm way over her now, I'm still a bit unsure on dating him. Just cause I'm not sure if I want to date yet. I just like his company right now and if he wanted a kiss or hug or two I wouldn't really mind. e/3/e He was my midnight kiss for new years if you count kissing through the phone/ipod screen haha. It was so embarrassing to me, but he thought it was cute at least. Speaking of New Years, I spent it mostly with Kev and Rob! I stayed up pretty late, but had lots of fun seeing Rob trying to make puns and listening to Kev trying to stay up LOL.

Back on the topic of today, the princes actually were all on skype today yay! we decided to change our icons finally and I was so happy to see them all and talk with them and we changed out icons for this month! We're back to having our usual Starry Sky icons. Ahh I missed having Kanata as my icon my tsun anime boyfriend. If only Kev was more like you kekeke. Just kiddingggg. He's perfect the way he is uvu Right now, I'm just hanging with Rob while she's watching some really weird sexual incest movie about the 1700's I don't even know. I think that's a good summary for today!

Let's hope 2014 is a nice year!
-Jenn

here are the icons btw! I really liked how they turned out so;
KanekoIcon10.pngYomariIcon10.pngSuzueneIcon10.png

Me, Myself, and You.

NEKO★JENN

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