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    category:Utaite.

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I haven't blogged anything music related in a while, and I decided to do some of my feedback on Boyfriend's new japanese single 'My Avatar'. I first heard about this single back in February when I checked on cdjapan for any news, and was wondering what this comeback would be like. On March 5th, a teaser came out featuring new looks and a box set that really could give someone a seizure like from SNSD's Galaxy Supernova.




Here is a list of my feedback throughout the whole video.
0:08 - that new 'B' logo looks so much like an EXO logo.
0:16 - whoa cool dance
0:22 - really likin donghyun. he does a lot better in these edgy songs
0:29 - PRECIOUS JEONGIE BABY
0:32 - was that youngmin. wheres his close up
0:34 - KWANGMIN??? UHHHH you look way too babyish for those shades i am sorry
0:41 - what the fuck is this 3:3 crossed box frame. i can barely make out hyunseong's face and dude it looks so noob cg i can't
0:43 - this is a sucky filter overlay and dumbass looking minwoo
0:52 - that 'YOU' part made that twin look so unattractive i think its kwangmin
0:57 - get the fuck out of my face minwoo. you look really gay with that white streak and rhinestone eyes.
1:12 - REALLY HATING THIS OVERLAY LAYER THERES JUST SOMETHING RANDOM AND WEIRD
1:15 - whoa hyunseong's gotten really good at dancing

overall, i do like the song! its nice and edgy and reminds me a bit of infinite's songs. tbh, the clothes tho remind me A LOT of like ukiss's kevin from their neverland era. like serious that random streak and rhinestones? not original, but i think donghyun can pull it off well. I really liked the hyung line too in the mv over the maknae, mostly because its a manlier song and show that i'm not watching a cute mv of teenage boys and their goddamn uncles. as a best friend though, i love everything even though minwoo is like the worst guy like serious he's just trying TOO MUCH TO BE COOL IT MAKES ME CRINGE, but either way i'm excited for the full release! c:

-Jenn/Neko

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It's really early in the morning whenever I think about the people I dislike and why I dislike them. Usually, I'm never a person to completely dislike someone unless their my brother or go to my school, but that's totally different from what I'm talking about. I think what I mean is someone I use to be close friends with, and now I just can't stand them.

I won't point any fingers and name drop, but let's say these two were really close to me. I couldn't really imagine my life without them back then, but now I think I'll be totally fine. Since both felt just so one sided, it hurt me and I think I deserve more than a one sided friendship. I do, right?

One stopped because she didn't want to talk to me and she never told me why. I really dislike dishonest people, though that's sort of hypocritical, at least I try. I still wanted to be friends with her, but if she wasn't going to tell me why she didn't want to talk to me or make an effort to be friends in the first place, I shouldn't try. It really hurt me though. Cause this was the first time someone promised me we would friends forever, but then they just broke it. I hated it. This made me have a mental breakdowns that eventually led up to me almost killing myself...I still wish I did. As a person with trust issues since the beginning of time, this really scarred me. It made me question my bonds with others which brings me to my next person. (I think I've talked about a lot of this first person before so I won't talk much about again LOL)

She was nice. She tried to always be so supportive and kind. She was my best friend and I used to feel so happy talking to her. Over time though, it started to hurt. During my depression Nov-Jan., I felt like she was never there. I felt like she had better things to do, which she probably did, but she never seemed to take notice that everyday I wanted to kill myself. Or more like, she never took it seriously. Sure, she would write supportive messages and all, but no matter how times I read them, all I could think was, "She doesn't understand." The people who I'm close to now understand, but she seem to have no idea how to handle my behavior, which isn't her fault, it was something though that I didn't think I could deal with. Then during that long break of self discovery(lol) and no online contact, I realize that people change and how much I changed. I grew more independent and so did she. I checked her twitter every now and then to check up on friends and she seemed to always be happy not really taking notice or care that I could be dead. I know that's not her fault, and I'm happy she's happier without me. It made me realize though, that she never took my suicidal posts seriously even though, everyday I really did fantasize about dying. And I would get so envious whenever I saw a murder or funeral on tv. (I'm a lot better now lol.) people grow distant, and as I saw her do better without me, I decided it would be better for me to leave. She probably hasn't even noticed haha.

It's been almost two months since I gave Kev my Skype to delete people off. He didn't delete anyone off my favorites, only 1/2 were still on my favorites but at least one is gone. I don't know. I've grown more distant, but at the same time, I choose to be closer to the friends I love so much.

Maybe we can all be friends again but for now, I prefer not.

-Jenn/Neko

PS. I do not want to animate for ABCBA R3 SOB. At least Jes animated some of it while I was at the hospital (secret), but ughhhhh.
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I really love Kev, Rob and Jiisan. They're all my closest friends and I feel pretty laid back when I'm around then. ;v; (I love Mari and Chen too just wish we could all be more active cries. AND CHARLI TOO endless for the Charles.)

Kev's been my friend since I was 14? Or 15? Around that. We met when I was at open door for highschool, I made a really lame joke and he was the only one around me who heard it and laughed LOL. And he's been my best friend since uvu well he wasn't just 'best friend' for the majority hehe but we're still really close. He mostly takes care of me and tries to keep me from trouble. We usually get mad and wrestle each other but it was fun. It still is. He knows a lot about me and I know a lot about him so we try and look out for each other a lot. I'm always sad when I remember he moved far away from but I love how we still try and call and webcam each other ahhhh <3 I love him to bits. /) //3//)/)

Rob I've known for 5 years and she's just aaaa. Without her, I truly wouldn't be here and I'm so grateful to have a best friend like her. We met on the ol' pet site known as Neurogalaxy, before all we did was comment and rp with each other (I was 12 oh god that's scary) Then like a few years later, after I took a year break, I came back and we exchanged Skype info. At first I thought it would be awkward but nope! We ended up talking lots and lots and aaaaa she actually remembered my birthday and made me a gift and it was the year I hated my birthday and I remember crying so much. She's helped me through so many events and whenever I was in the hospital, she actually noticed I was gone for a week and felt like something bad happened and aaaaaa. I know it's stupid to cry over that, but I was so happy. Rob's one of the people I feel totally comfortable talking about anything and I really hope we can talk more. (/) u/w/u)/)

NOW JIISAN. He's someone I can always chat to and just play around. He can get me all cheered up in no time. Even if I'm sad and mopey, he just needs to talk about anime and I'll all happy haha. I can say he has a lot of Neko intuition meaning he can probably guess what I would do or could do lol. But he's been there a lot for me too, from when I had like that giant meltdown during vocafx to when I was depressed. We've only known each other for like two years, but I feel like we're the perfect comedic pair! haha He's like a big brother to me who (don't tell him) that I kinda wanna be...not a siscon but a calm cool weird role model. uvu

I just wanted to share.

-Jenn/Neko

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SO. I've been meaning to write a big explanation on why I've been gone for like a month and since I can't remember my tumblr welp. Back in I think late January, I went into a realllly deep depression. I felt lonely, people I wanted to talk to clearly didn't want to talk to me, and my mom didn't make me feel good. Eventually, I decided I had enough and attempted suicide. I don't want to go too much into detail about that, but let's just say people were right when they call me 'hard-headed' haha.

Afterwards, I stayed at the hospital for about a week or so and just had my head examined and stitched up. I went through some memory loss due to the trauma just of the past months, but that was just temporary and I got a lot of my memory back a few days after. I got to go home and they thought it would be better for me to not live with my mom for a while, in case it brought back anything, so I stayed at my friend Kev's house where I mostly lived with his mom until he came back for a while from Nebraska haha. (I feel sorry for Sid who has to takes notes for him all the time) I had lots of fun staying and eating all his mom's cooking nomnom. Kev even decided to watch the whole first series of Inazuma Eleven with me and ahhh it was so great to watch Inazuma again and to try and get Kev to know all the characters. (He just called everyone Endou _ (with their number) all except Fubuki who he...knew LOL) I came back home after another week and just decided to not talk to my mom for a bit, even though she's the one who drives me to the hospital for some check ups still fff.

Kev still visited me, and before he told me it was better if I stayed offline for a bit. Which, I totally understood since tumblr and skype just brought back some bad memories. Not even three hours in on my offline break, I wanted to talk to people again cries. He let me use Line on my laptop to talk to some friends on there which was mostly just Jiisan and Rob but ahh <3 They're my closest friends so I was fine with that. I gave him access to my skype and some other sites and let him delete anyone on my friendslist or whatever that he felt like could hurt me. I don't really care haha. I started focusing more about my school friends and hey even got a crush on one of them. But yea, crushes never work out for me. Still, I got closer with them and felt better about going to school instead of crying and stressing. I still stress but I haven't cried in a while. WELL, except when I remember that Kev plans on going to study aboard and I won't see him for a while. We have the same timezone but eventually we won't and it'll be so different to talk to him and ughh ;__; I do tear up whenever I remember.

Now that I'm back, I get to talk to Mari and Chen again! Mostly Mari LOL. But ahh I'm so happy. OH AND I FORGOT TO MENTION but Charli sent me her package and ahhh it's just so amazing. She sent all these kitkats and a rice cracker AND DADADAAAAAAA A REI CHARM. I just love it <3. CEPT HE KILLED MY SHINJI KEYCHAIN but I found his body it's all good. And recently, I've been really into pokemon, and with my chimchar, I got a Virizion plush! It's so cute! ahhh I want the whole Sacred Sword set but my wallet is starting to run dry ;v;. So for now, time to rough it up. (stares at pkmncollectors in tears)

I guess that's all for now. I need to update some Utaite Talk since ahhh Sakatan and Honeyworks and just everyone. IS. AMAZING.

- Jenn/Neko
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I'm nothing, but a worthless piece of shit.

Me, Myself, and You.

NEKO★JENN

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